Hey there! I just finished watching Supernatural's Season 10 Episode 22, and I felt like writing a post solely about it, but I thought this would be a great opportunity for me to express my love for TV shows.
I started keeping up with several TV series when I first got into secondary school, since I only started downloading and watching movies/tv shows online around that time. I started with Merlin, which I first watched a few of the episodes on TV, then kept up with the episodes online. I became obsessed with Bradley James, the hunk who played King Arthur and I even received laminated pictures of him as birthday presents from my friends. The show ended in 2012, the year I sat for an important exams called PMR. I knew that King Arthur will die in the last episode, and since the ending was released around the time of PMR, I decided to wait and watch the series finale during 2013's New Year, and I couldn't. I was terrified of having to watch him die. When I finally watched it around February or so, I was devastated. I've never experienced death of anyone close to me, but that particular death, even though it was the death of a fictional character, made me feel the way I would feel if someone I loved were to die. And unfortunately this isn't the only show that made me feel that way. I sticked around until the end of the show, and I feel like even if they had extended the show and made it a bit longer, I would still watch it till the end. I also had to watch Bradley's character in iZombie, Lowell, die in a heart-wrenching scene and that wasn't enjoyable either.
The second show that I watched was Supernatural, but I'm going to talk about that later and move on to the third show which is Doctor Who. I started watching this show when I as 14, when I started becoming friends with Alia who flew from UK and she gave me all the past and (at that moment) current seasons of the show. The thing about Doctor Who is that instead of experiencing deaths, its more about the regeneration of the Doctors, where the old actor is replaced by a new one while the character still being the same. I wasn't really affected when Nine regenerated into Ten, since he only played the Doctor for a year and he was more of a fun character and there was no emotional attachment of him to the show other than the short romance with Rose Tyler. I loved Ten (played by David Tennant) as the Doctor. I thought he was amazing, I loved his personality as the Doctor, and when he regenerated into Eleven I was so devastated and mad. At that time I thought I would never be able to love Eleven (played by Matt Smith) as the Doctor but I ended up loving him just as much as I loved Ten, maybe a tad bit less than that. When Eleven regenerated into Twelve I bawled so hard. I just felt like he deserved more seasons. Even though I loved Ten when he was the Doctor, but when he returned on the show for the 50th anniversary, I thought Eleven suited the character more. Maybe that's how I will feel if Eleven were to return on the show, or maybe not. I think Twelve is great, but I guess I just loved it more when Ten and Eleven were on the show. What I'm trying to say is, David and Matt leaving the show hurt just as much as how it would if your best friend for many years were to move away and you will never be able to reconnect and be as close as you were when he or she were near to you.
Now, let's talk about Supernatural, the most frustrating show ever. I cannot even begin to tell you how many times I decided to stop watching the show but failed. Dean and Sam have died so many times in the show so I'm just going to mention the deaths that really affected me. In the early seasons of the show, the deaths weren't too bad, the boys had one mission and the rest were just hiccups and challenges that they had to face. John's death was emotional, but it didn't hurt too much, and the others were just part of the storyline. But let's not forget Sam dying in Dean's arms in season 2. That was.. terrible. When Sam came back from hell after being in the cage with Lucifer and Michael, that was pretty upsetting and I felt so sad for Sam that he had to deal with all that, but season 8's ending really made me pissed. I cried so hard because Sam was hurt and I was so annoyed at the whole angel plot. And then we have Kevin's death, which was pretty friggin awful, because 1. he died in Sam's hands 2. Dean was so guilty about the whole thing I felt so sorry for him :( And then the best death ever, when Dean died in Sam's arms during season 9's finale. Do you need to watch how emotional it was because here's the link you're welcome. Sam's tears got me tearing up in my own bloody room, that scene hurt so BAD its indescribable. And then you have Dean turning into a demon in the same freaking episode I mean excuse me?? I love demon!Dean by the way but that scene was just too horrible to digest. Now season 10, we have our beloved Charlie being punched and beaten up by Dean, thanks to the awesome Mark of Cain, and better yet, Charlie died trying to fix his mess a few episodes later. I'm not going to lie I had tears running down my cheeks when she died, because I simply couldn't handle Sam and Dean's expressions. There's just something about Sam almost-crying-face that makes it unbearable for me to watch. And finally, season 10 episode 22 (for now). Dean showing off his Cain side again by slaughtering the whole Stein's family (the family who killed Charlie); Sam trying to kill Crowley who is FAMILY by the way, but the ending of the episode literally gave me a panic attack (seriously). Dean beating up Castiel, that was hard to watch, but when Dean almost wanting to stab Cas to death using Cas' own angel blade; the cinematography and his expressions, that gave me a heart attack. I thought he really did kill Castiel, but thank goodness he didn't. That ending got me really good, and I am not happy about it. I am 150% positive that next week's season finale is going to get me so upset and frustrated that I will plan to stop watching the show but ending up watching it till the end.
I know I included loyalty into the title, and here's what I have to say about it. Despite all these deaths of my favourite characters who I have emotional attachment to, I still choose to watch these shows until the end and experience the pain over and over again. I'm going to be honest, it can be pretty stressful watching these shows, especially Supernatural, since I have been watching these characters throughout my whole teenage years. I have given up on most of it so many times but I always find myself going back to the same shows and rarely do I choose to find a new one to watch. I wonder if this is loyalty or if I just refuse to get attached to even more characters just to watch them die a few seasons into the series. I would never agree to the idea of CW cancelling Supernatural, but at the same time sometimes the deaths are just a bit too much for me to handle.
Let me know what TV shows you guys like to watch, and if you like the TV shows that I've mentioned above, hit me up! Maybe we can spend sometime releasing our frustration regarding the non-stop deaths of such important characters :p
ps: I do watch some other shows, but these have caused emotional pain for me much more than the rest. also, I have to admit I do get a bit too into these shows sometimes, but I guess I can't really help it now that I've watched them for almost six years
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