Tomorrow will be my best friend - Tsara Aisyah's birthday. A few days ago, a friend of mine told me to send a short video message of myself wishing her happy birthday to her sister, and I failed to do so as I thought I was too busy to do so. I couldn't stop feeling the guilt, I only had to send a short video, and yet I couldn't bother to spend a fraction of my time to do something that will possibly make her day. Since when did I become so.. selfish?
I went through my collection of birthday cards made by my friends, I remembered the amount of effort we used to put in during everyone's birthday, not because we had to, but because it was the best way to show how much that particular person meant to us. I never missed making handmade birthday cards for my friends, and made sure that the birthday celebration is as meaningful as possible; heck, I even sent a package of birthday presents all the way to Australia last year! When university first started, I couldn't help but wonder, why does it feel as if all the friendships I have now are so bland? And now I've finally understood that it is myself who has been lacking effort, and there's only myself to blame.
Hopefully this new semester I will be able to enjoy things the way I used to in high school, prioritise things depending on how happy it makes me feel. I had a lot to go through during high school (I'm sure all of us did), but my friends were one of the strong pillars that helped me survive through the bad days, and there's no reason for me to take them for granted now. If you do know me personally and feel like I'm distanced myself these past few months, I am really sorry, I had a messy start to university, now that I'm in my second semester I shall try my best to make it up for you, and I love you, okay? Okay.
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