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Been feeling a bit low these past few days, felt the need to vent my thoughts to someone, here I am on my trusty old blog.

No one is going to listen to your justifications and explanations for being a shitty person. 

So you keep on listing down reasons, rethinking your excuses for days, only for yourself to see it. 

No one is going to look at your achievements, or the good things that you've done; when you've done one horrible thing to them, that's all that they are going to remember about you. 

This whole semester break, I've made a few decisions which at that moment I thought was what's best for me, and now that I have time to rethink and reevaluate everything, I'm starting to doubt myself. 

I keep on telling myself to focus on the pros instead of the cons, but not a day goes by without me thinking about how things must've been through the other person's perspective. I must've seemed like a complete prick, maybe I am one after all. An apology is not going to change anything, if the other person refuses to apologise. Part of me feels like an apology is what I have to do now, but part of me still insists that that's not necessary at all. And that's probably the main problem, ego. Ego on both sides. 

Let's lay down our weapons and go back to being friends, please?

am